fear...

have u ever fear about something... well... everybody is affraid of something right???... even the toughest people in the world is affraid of something too... and to get rid if this fear, u have to face it... that way your fears would be affraid of u... but have u ever fear about something that u can't face... that's inevitable... somethng that going to happen... even if u try to stop it... it will still happen... have u??? well... i have... in fact... that's my greastest fear... 1 which can never be rid of... and that fear is losing my best fren....

i know that life has to go on and we all move on but to have something that u worked for years... just dissapears like that... the bond we have, the fun we had, laughs we had... all gone... a frend of mine is going off to japan... his a best fren that i had for a long time... longer then anybody i know... we play golf together when we were kids... we give each other company if we needed it... and we help each other when either one of us fall from walking on the path of life... but to know that your going to lose a fren which is that precious to u... it burns inside... sometimes i wish we shouldn't grow up... as days pass... new things seems to happen... and sometimes those things r hard to bare...

i'm guessing thats life... u lose 1 and gain another... but wat if i don't 1 2 lose 1... i want it there... i 1 2 have my best fren to come to birthday every year... i 1 my best fren to come to my wedding and be the best man... 1 want my best fren there so i can enjoy it with him and still have the laughs we use to have... but as we know... life is never fair... and we all have to face it....

i know this may sound abit weird but i consider my frenz more important then my wife in the future... and maybe sometimes more important then my family... without my best frenz... nobody is there to help me... nobody that i can talk to... freely... sometimes i'm affraid of talking to my parents about my problem becoz they can never understand the pain that i have...

i write this post becoz i want people to know that i have a frend who is like a brother to me... and losing him is like losing a limb... so who evers reading this post... keep your best fren as close as u can... cheerish it... becoz in the future... u never wat life will do to saperate u away from him or her...