Loneliness...

wat do u c in this picture??

a person sitting alone???

a shadow of some1???

or for u creative people... just a picture...

but if u ask me... i c myself there.... its like i said before... surrounded with some many frenz... but u still feel lonely in the end... everytime i c this picture... i think of wat i've done in the past that made me this way... i feel so useless and so meaningless... from wat i c... i'm nothing....

i kept on thinking that i was created into this world to feel lonely... evey1 just leaving me behind... in school... in class... at home... nobody is always there when i needed them... and thats when i thought about a girlfren...

i thought it through and WAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING... i mean... i will never have a chance with women... becoz... well... my looks aren't as good as u think... to me... i admit it.... i'm ugly... i;m hedieos... there is nothing to look at... and to c that people... no... guys... with looks...they always have a better chance... without even doing anything... they just be themselves and boom... a girl starts drueling over them... to me... this is a kind of a sensitive issue... i always thought... "wat do they have that i don't???!!! OOoo... good looks..."

all of this is just unfair to me... i feel as if i am created to be alone in the world... to live my life alone... and to end it alone... i can imagine already that my funeral will be empty... huh...

u know... every night before i go to sleep... i think back on wat have i done in the past... find my 1st love=no.... get good grades=no... achieve my goals=no... then i thought back again... acting all tough and strong just to think that i actually did something useful in my life... but actually... i'm just a coward... who does nothing but act... a useless, lonely, coward...

so right now... i feel as if i found nothing in my life but me and my shodow... thats how i feel tonight...