Feeling Better

i had this emotional thing happened to me lately... for some reason... i felt so left out in this world... its like i'm the only 1 living it... no... let me rephrase... it like i don't even exist... surrounded by frenz... but i still feel so lonely... just the other day.... i put out a post saying that i was jealous and all that... asking for help from the good people i know... and it came through... a fren told me that wat i'm jealous about it pretty common... jealous about y people are born a hell lot better then me... she said that everybody feels jealous sometime too... she also said that theres nothing for me to get upset about... as i stood there reading was she said... it came to my mind... "she right... life isn't fair..." i've been telling my whole life this the life just ain't fair... for a moment there... i forgetten all about it... she made me realise that there is really nothing for me to get upset about... that jealousy of the well being is just part of life... not only that but she made me realise that i could change the world if i wanted to... it all depends on wat i do... i realise that now... how can i not realise that sooner... how naive of me!!!... but so far... not matter how many times i say that... "life ain't fair!!" in my heart andin my thoughts... i still have that feeling... maybe it becoz im just lonely... maybe its becoz i got nothing to do all this while... i've been shunt away by fren several time now... asking them out but they have plans... nobody ever looks for me... i'm no 1... i'm just a fren of a fren... well... wat can i say... life just ain't fair...