Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Feeling Better
i had this emotional thing happened to me lately... for some reason... i felt so left out in this world... its like i'm the only 1 living it... no... let me rephrase... it like i don't even exist... surrounded by frenz... but i still feel so lonely... just the other day.... i put out a post saying that i was jealous and all that... asking for help from the good people i know... and it came through... a fren told me that wat i'm jealous about it pretty common... jealous about y people are born a hell lot better then me... she said that everybody feels jealous sometime too... she also said that theres nothing for me to get upset about... as i stood there reading was she said... it came to my mind... "she right... life isn't fair..." i've been telling my whole life this the life just ain't fair... for a moment there... i forgetten all about it... she made me realise that there is really nothing for me to get upset about... that jealousy of the well being is just part of life... not only that but she made me realise that i could change the world if i wanted to... it all depends on wat i do... i realise that now... how can i not realise that sooner... how naive of me!!!... but so far... not matter how many times i say that... "life ain't fair!!" in my heart andin my thoughts... i still have that feeling... maybe it becoz im just lonely... maybe its becoz i got nothing to do all this while... i've been shunt away by fren several time now... asking them out but they have plans... nobody ever looks for me... i'm no 1... i'm just a fren of a fren... well... wat can i say... life just ain't fair...
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Listen old friend.Life sucks.It seriously does.No matter what we do,we will always find dat there's something missing or wrong.There is no such thing as a perfect life.It's the same for everyone.N the thing bout u being jealous,dats really is normal.There's a saying "grass is always greener on the other side".Dat is exactly how it is.U can't help feeling it.But the thing is,it just looks better because we r looking from the outside.Everyone have their own stories,their own problem to deal with.Some,more than others.I don't mean to make this too long,but just to make my point,let me tell u about someone dat i noe.Growing up,he was always alone.His dad was a bastard.He nvr treat his wife right.He didn't really abuse her physically but mentally,it was horrible.N he nvr care bout his family.N it left to his wife to support the family.For years his mom stood strong,but she has had it hard.She was too tired from all of this,stress out.N she passed away.D dude was 16 at dat time.He grew up watching all diz happens whithout able to do anything.N something broke inside off him.He can't trust anyone,n there's always a barrier dat prevent him from getting close to anyone.Deeply,inside him,he is always alone n he probably will always be.But the thing is,u can't see it from just looking at him.He looks like he have everyting.He have the looks,the personality.N he always looks happy.Wat i'm sayin is,even if it seems dat his life is great n he had it easy,his life sucks more den anyone i noe.N he just take it as it is.So take solace in dat.If u think carefully,ur life isn't so bad.Just take everything dat life throws at u.And when u get through it,it'll probably get better.Like d dude in my story said once when i ask him,"Life sucks,live with it,n make it better",easy eh?.N Ur a great guy.N im proud to call u my fren.
ReplyDeleteExactly. couldn't have said it better myself. Nothing is always perfect. theres bound to be cracks and flaws but its just how you want to deal with it. thats important as well.
ReplyDeleteIv'e got a friend, a best friend with the almost exact same situation. she's got it tough but on the surface, she's smart, pretty, always so happy. but underneath all that, she's just trying to struggle with things at home and stuff.
and like my art teacher used to say: "life's a bitch. but hey, you still gotta live." so be grateful with the things you should be grateful for. have a positive mindset and be strong even when things are not working out. it'll be fine. : )